I miss being in love. If it was love, I mean. I just...I miss the feeling of looking forward to seeing him. I miss laying awake thinking of things to say to him. I miss the feeling that I used to get when I looked at him. Now it's the feeling of, "he'll never be mine". I miss saying things like "ya know, when I marry him". I can't even think of that anymore without seeing her face.

What I wanna do is kill her. I wanna call her a slutty little bitch and wish death upon her. But he loves her and I can't do that.

There's a new song out by Taylor Swift called Teardrops On My Guitar. I heard it right when I found out about his engagement and it tore my heart apart to hear it. But after a while, after I thought I had dealt with it and gotten over it, the song becomes a hit. Now I hear it every day going to and from school. Then I come home and somoene sends me the music video.